On This Day- The White Flag is Raised.

He has given me today- this daily bread. God gave me the still today. The opportunity to be still. Yesterday, I didn't go to school- like I was suppose to- like I said- I was not ready. I'm standing at a fork in the road. I have 2 clear choices in front of me- To return or not to return. I'm just confused and I am torn. Today is the day, and I feel like God has given me a still moment. He has lifted off my shoulders the confusion of yesterday and the stress of returning and has given me this frozen moment in time- to stop and just spend some time asking Him what to do.
I'm scared right now. I don't know what I am doing? I just can't think it feels like, and I'm tired.

God, thank you for the stillness, thank you for the peace today. God, today I ask that you give me clear and obvious directing. I pray that I can listen, I pray that I can seek you, I pray that I can have the strength to push all esle aside.
God, I am listening. Lord. Speak to me today. Give me a peace. Prepare me today God. Prepare me.
I asked that you bring renewal to my broken heart. I ask that you restore me.
God I want to be consecrated for you. Lord, I really do honestly want to go in the direction that YOU are calling me to. Lord, I'm scared to say this, I don't want to- but God- I pray that you help me to surrender what I want to do. It is not about me, it's about you. That's the way it should be, that's not the way it has been. God- renew me. Cleanse me today, and start over in me. Prepare me to go in the direction that you want. God, you know what I want- you know the desires of my heart. You know that I am struggling. But God, help ME to know and to TRUST that you ALSO are the ONLY ONE, who KNOWS what I need- and God, Help me to be reminded that YOU ARE PROVIDING EXACTLY WHAT I NEED. God. Today I raise up my white flag. I give up this battle I have had with you- the keys are yours- I want you to drive.
God. I surrender.
Here I am, Your Servant, I am listening. God Speak to me.